i am in a bloody foul mood.now.damn.whatthehell.

i don't know which word is suitable to describe my feelings. but it sucks.totally.

i should still be very pumped up and excited (because tickets to Perth are booked),

instead, i am dumb folded by a rather disgusting situation.

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I sort of lost my father. now, i am losing my mother.

she's not ill or anything but some one out there is calling my mum, hers.

she's getting too close to her, to an extent which i am feeling disgusted.

i am not angry.
if you want me to be, you have not succeeded.

i am not jealous.
if you want, i will give up my position as her rightful daughter, to you.

but, giving up is not my kind of thing. fight me if you can.

even after the day i die, i shall be my mum's one and only daughter.
should you want to alter that, it will be over my dead's body.
should you want to spoil our r/s, i will put a knife right through your heart.

you can play your little game and go on with the pretending and acting,
but, even until you are dead, that will never ever happen.

you heard me. it's - 'never ever'.

true story.