i am in a bloody foul mood.now.damn.whatthehell.
i don't know which word is suitable to describe my feelings. but it sucks.totally.
i should still be very pumped up and excited (because tickets to Perth are booked),
instead, i am dumb folded by a rather disgusting situation.
-
I sort of lost my father. now, i am losing my mother.
she's not ill or anything but some one out there is calling my mum, hers.
she's getting too close to her, to an extent which i am feeling disgusted.
i am not angry.
if you want me to be, you have not succeeded.
i am not jealous.
if you want, i will give up my position as her rightful daughter, to you.
but, giving up is not my kind of thing. fight me if you can.
even after the day i die, i shall be my mum's one and only daughter.
should you want to alter that, it will be over my dead's body.
should you want to spoil our r/s, i will put a knife right through your heart.
you can play your little game and go on with the pretending and acting,
but, even until you are dead, that will never ever happen.
you heard me. it's - 'never ever'.
true story.
foul-ing@ 11:30 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
mad world@ 3:50 PM
Friday, September 25, 2009
don't we all agree that - sometimes, we think that this is a mad world?
i never hear the gary jules' version of mad world but the adam lambert's version blew me away and i am still trying to sit/think straight.
i never hear the gary jules' version of mad world but the adam lambert's version blew me away and i am still trying to sit/think straight.
*
All around are me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world
*
(repeat mode)
repeating for like 2500 times.
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world
*
(repeat mode)
repeating for like 2500 times.
l-o-v-e@ 12:40 AM
when he loves you truly, he will embrace all your flaws and scars
when he loves you truly, he will want to see all your ugly sides and times
when he loves you truly, he will not mind treating you like a princess
when he loves you truly, he will go through the good and the bad with you
when he loves you truly, he will go the extra mile just to make you smile
when he loves you truly, he will not ask for fairness
when he loves you truly, he will let you feel his importance when he hold you close
when he loves you truly, he will care, motivate and cheer you on whenever needed
when he loves you truly, he will let his insecurities take over him sometimes
when he loves you truly, he will not want anything bad to happen to you
when he loves you truly, he will only have eyes for you
when he loves you truly, he will treasure and cherish you
when he loves you truly, he will miss you even if you are right before his eyes
when he loves you truly, he will kiss and dry your tears whenever you have them
when he loves you truly, he will make you cry when he pop that important question
when he loves you truly and you love him truly,
true love will exist between the both of you.
i am sure the list will go on but so far, these are what i have thought of ...
feel free to add on!
you are really fast & furious abt booking of cruise!
star cruise star cruise, phuket & penang, here we come!
woohoo!
happy birthday to lulu!!!
big hugs!
when he loves you truly, he will want to see all your ugly sides and times
when he loves you truly, he will not mind treating you like a princess
when he loves you truly, he will go through the good and the bad with you
when he loves you truly, he will go the extra mile just to make you smile
when he loves you truly, he will not ask for fairness
when he loves you truly, he will let you feel his importance when he hold you close
when he loves you truly, he will care, motivate and cheer you on whenever needed
when he loves you truly, he will let his insecurities take over him sometimes
when he loves you truly, he will not want anything bad to happen to you
when he loves you truly, he will only have eyes for you
when he loves you truly, he will treasure and cherish you
when he loves you truly, he will miss you even if you are right before his eyes
when he loves you truly, he will kiss and dry your tears whenever you have them
when he loves you truly, he will make you cry when he pop that important question
when he loves you truly and you love him truly,
true love will exist between the both of you.
i am sure the list will go on but so far, these are what i have thought of ...
feel free to add on!
*
i love you.happy birthday to my dearest mummy!
you are really fast & furious abt booking of cruise!
star cruise star cruise, phuket & penang, here we come!
woohoo!
happy birthday to lulu!!!
big hugs!
*
happy knowing you for 5 years and 6 months.
happy knowing you for 5 years and 6 months.
=)
of expression@ 12:44 AM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
i want to get you like how much Hitler wanted the Jews
i want to get you like how much the "Inglorious Bastards" wanted the Nazis
i want to get you like how much a hungry and wild tiger needed a preyi want to get you like how much a scavenger needed a corpse
i want to get you like how much a revengeful ghost needed a revengei want to get you like how much my hatred can lead me to.
are your emotions satisfying?
are your emotions satisfying?
go on@ 11:48 AM
Monday, September 21, 2009
3 projects are down and done.
2 more to go go go!!!
we can do it! =)
*
mel,
it was nice chatting with you.
knowing about how you are doing.
just talking to you.
hearing your voice.
take care ya. see u in dec!
i love ya =)
2 more to go go go!!!
we can do it! =)
*
mel,
it was nice chatting with you.
knowing about how you are doing.
just talking to you.
hearing your voice.
take care ya. see u in dec!
i love ya =)
i@ 12:52 AM
Friday, September 18, 2009
late at night, down and tearing.
no one else to turn to.
how scary it is to self-talk oneself
dont wanna take another for granted
for i know how it feels like
no one else to turn to.
how scary it is to self-talk oneself
dont wanna take another for granted
for i know how it feels like
*
i believe in sheer fate and luck
i still believe in the - "forever friends"
and i want to believe in genuine friendship
i still believe in the - "forever friends"
and i want to believe in genuine friendship
i do want to.
my lil bdd@ 12:13 AM
after so long, finally, blogger could work for me again!!! (rather, i had gave up trying...)
i had wanted to blog about much stuff but as time goes by, i just did not. now i hope to be back and do some updates on this lil space of mine!
13.09.09. marina baraage!
it was a sunny day!
shakes hand with mr water droplet.
me loves to kick ball-ball!
kor-kor! catch this!
run baby run!
kor-kor, carry me!
and bring me there!
my two most precious-precious =)
ask jie-jie come sit down here beside me!
opps. forgot to smile for the camera! HEEES!
for some reasons, jie-jie loves this picture.
knocked-outed
* i heart you all.
time seriously has been slipping by. my lil bdd has grown up so much. talking and talking all day in his language which i cannot understand. i tried to guess here and there and it was so much fun.
we talk like a rabbit and a pig. i am rabbit, he is pig. he is just so dear so close to my heart. so much so that i am afraid of losing him. he is no longer a baby. he is a toddler now. soon, he will become a lil kid and then he will attend school and he will grow and grow and grow.
i wish at some point, the growing would be slowed down because i want to cherish and spend more time with him. i want to enjoy the moment and i want to be able to care much more for him...
even though his looks will change but i will always see him as my lil bdd. he just grows on me. he just appeared and stole my heart.
i had wanted to blog about much stuff but as time goes by, i just did not. now i hope to be back and do some updates on this lil space of mine!
13.09.09. marina baraage!
it was a sunny day!
shakes hand with mr water droplet.
me loves to kick ball-ball!
kor-kor! catch this!
run baby run!
kor-kor, carry me!
and bring me there!
my two most precious-precious =)
ask jie-jie come sit down here beside me!
opps. forgot to smile for the camera! HEEES!
for some reasons, jie-jie loves this picture.
knocked-outed
* i heart you all.
time seriously has been slipping by. my lil bdd has grown up so much. talking and talking all day in his language which i cannot understand. i tried to guess here and there and it was so much fun.
we talk like a rabbit and a pig. i am rabbit, he is pig. he is just so dear so close to my heart. so much so that i am afraid of losing him. he is no longer a baby. he is a toddler now. soon, he will become a lil kid and then he will attend school and he will grow and grow and grow.
i wish at some point, the growing would be slowed down because i want to cherish and spend more time with him. i want to enjoy the moment and i want to be able to care much more for him...
even though his looks will change but i will always see him as my lil bdd. he just grows on me. he just appeared and stole my heart.
