i feel cold everyday.
i feel tired everyday.
i feel lonely everyday.
i feel like i have no strength.

i am not strong as i always claim.

i know i am getting weaker.
i need a powerful source which i can feel from within...

everyday i am sad.

i cant forgive -myself.

i hate myself for torturing me.

breathe,

Ladies and Gentlemen.

Please believe in Karma.

those who enjoyed putting people down can continue to prove that you are a great - sucker. go on. enjoy. and in the end. sucked yourself dry. you will perish soon enough. before you know it.

give people their right to breathe.

because.
you ain't god.
you ain't buddha.

you cannot make people life miserable.

fuck off. seriously. get your own life. before you lose it.

i have been sick since last fri/sat. that was what's so ever happening in my life. thanx to my private doctor. and dear kindy nurse-xuan. i am getting so much better now. and today. i can curse and swear. i am back to my normal =)

rantings for: SIM & MAYBANK> i will be nice.

"^$^%#@%@*&^$TA MA DE%^&^&%$$$ TA MA DE%^%&*#&*+^*"

see. i am nice. compared to past vulgar entries to scream at people. the people at these 2 places are driving me up the wall and driving me NUTSy. argh. i so want to use the "F" word. my fav word.

anyway. forget abt those. i can deal with them. yes i can.

i bought a laptop. An Asus. F9 series.
Tell me it's nice & good. shut the rest.


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i tore up my pri. 6 journal. i nv burn like how i would burn old things. i merely tore and threw them away. i kept an entry from my teacher.

trying to search for it..

i am ANGRY now. i fuckin lost it. i put it near my laptop here. now where in the fuckin world is it now? fuck man. argh. no idea how angry i am when i keep losing things. now i am going to lose myself. i treasure that piece of paper !! fuck la. dont let me find out who threw it. i kept it especially because i want to keep it. i want to type on blog one. kaos. i hate this feeling. it should be here but it isn't. i feel so helpless. i hate this kind of feeling. it's mine and i know where is it. dont tell me it can fuckin grow legs and run away.

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feeling sick to my ass.