lucky me! things are fine. phew! hees. i am happy. all thanx to love.

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french manicure session is so damn not successful today! argh! "^%#%@#^$^" so sorry dear... i need more practices! haa. i just love doing things for my best friend. i want her to look pretty pretty! hees. hugs mbtf.QAD =)


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prom's on fri. the day after tomorrow. so fast !! i wanna hide away and be "un-noticable". hees.

it's amazing how things can change. changes are constant. nothing is forever. the thought of wanting to stay with my dream is tough. despite difficulties and barriers, going through and wanting to stay strong and determined is not an easy task. to be able to be firm and gain support is something hard to obtain. having to move forward and think of what's best for oneself is really a challenge. how can you be sure that your one decision would not affect the rest of your life? there is no definite answer. being myself and believing myself is one thing i am proud of. doing what others want me to do rather than do the things i want had been repeated many time throughout my life. though i am not very old, but i had gain my experiences in different aspects. this is serious. not random. this is what i had to think clearly and be on my own to achieve. what i want and what i need are the 2 most major questions running through my lil brain now. to overcome? to let go? to make a decision which i will stick by with no regrets. no regrets at all. is that possible? i always claim i am strong. i always claim i will be alright. but is this the case? am i really that strong and alright? no.

dreams...

sometimes in dreams, you have more dreams.
sometimes in life, you have more than one dream.
sometimes getting near your dream, you are happy.
sometimes getting your dream, you need to sacrifice.
sometimes the dream you want might not be just quite it.

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thank you but thank you, not.

started yesterday with intense last min study for MWS. and at 3.30pm, all is over. if nothing goes wrong and i managed to pass ALL my modules. it's so bye bye Ngee Ann and "Hello World" (taken from Java's classic example) please let me pass my QLA. please please please...

head to marina with xiao chang and jessie. we were so surrounded by COUPLES. oh. what a day yah. met up with yong jia and a while later chang had to meet his sister and friend. sipeng came to join us. jessie and i had a couple fondue at Anderson's. we talked a lot of crap. blah blah blah. it ended with a supposed to be lovely surprise. 12 pink roses.

besides a dozen pink roses on valentine as my present/surprise. i got an email by the SIA Cabin Crew Recruit!!! i just read the email. oh my Buddha. i have been waiting for so long for it to come!!! i am a lil worried that it might not come at all but thanx so much for the Valentine present, SIA =) the interview is on 27/02/07. but i am supposed to go for dental appointment in the morning but SIA is priority. i am going for it!

i love the pink roses. thank you so much. *winks

thanx to jessie, i got a 20% on Warehouse's ear rings. hee.

went to town with jessie today. bumped into kp. met up with lulu and her guy. hees. bought a hula & co. tube top. my first CNY clothing for this year. bought a new future shorts too. tried to control spendings. ended the day with a super hard walking journey... to take bus home. HAHA

going paya lebar tmr with jessie, chang and lu. mission: accompany jessie to make her prom gown. hees.


take care all.
biggy hugs.
happy new year soon!

*my video call has just ended.
hugs baby =)

pimples popping.

period coming.

level of stressing.

time for relaxing.

i am so wishing.

so sad i am feeling.

no sign of smiling.

i am near to dying.

my heart is pumping.

my tears are rolling.

there is no controlling.

life is about rocking.

but now i am stoning.

i need some Mayday's Lian Ai-ing.

wees! today was the end of MBA! tmr will be ECAD. then next tue will be QLA(-_-) " and wed will be MWS and wee weewee! exams are finally over in Ngee Ann Poly. jia you jia you runqing!

happy birthday is a nice movie. i loved it. i teared with it.

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xian yu msged me today and it goes: "Runqing huh?"

i think i kinda deleted his number and so asked who is he.
he sounded pissed and all. so weird. he is like a really changed person.

well, he told me he saw me last fri. at Sentosa. oh. alrights. hi then. haiya! so dumb to even type this now... it's a wonder people telling me that they are still the same old self but it felt different to me. real different. if i say it out then you got pissed off, why like that? /shakes head x2

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well. now. chionging exams. it's the final one already. jia you myself =)

and er.. xiao chang attempted to murder me just now again! haa. he won't succeed. he will never! because i am strong!


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i saw nigel yesterday at BukitPanjangPlaza while having my "valentine" dinner! (which nigel?) my primary school best guy pal! NIGEL! hees. so qiao. really saw his mum and sisters too! cassandra don't seems to remember me. but i will always remember how cutie she looks in our primary school's uniform. it's in my heart. nigel is still like nigel. hiak hiaks. thanx so much to my date who nearly made me laughed my entire dinner out! it was hilarious. very long never laugh like that. really fun and cute. really embarrassing too lei! *&%#@#$^&*

to my dinner date: =)


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kp ah kp! please pick yourself up. please don't take away any more modules. please just pull yourself together alrights. i will do my best to help you if you want to help yourself.

some random stuff again and updates.


KUMON lovely lil kids =)




steamboat dinner at Suntec's Joaqium. yums yums!

who would like to have a PiPeapple?
brother chang having his haircut at his aunt's shop while me, jessie and calist waited... photographer: Jessie.

brother chang: "auntie ah, i want to cut handsome handsome one hor! thanx"

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finally got done with and over with the P.I. (min) 2500 words essay.
i smell exam. seriously. exam got a smell. smelly. but have to study. argh.
graduation is coming by so soon!

hopefully, SIA contact me and angel for an interview soon.

***to angel.qad.mbf: i will shop many many with you and go swimming with you okies. love ya. hugs. muacks.

we are the kind of best friends that even if we don't talk/meet up often, we won't lose our friendship and once we are together, others have to watch out because we will be in our crazy lil world and be nuttys. hee. i love her. even in my P.I. assignment, i include her as one of the example in things i value and why. hees =)
friendship is one i never want to give up. i will always wanna keep those dear and nice ones.

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kp bro.
i am really sorry to hear of what had happened. every life will come to an end eventually. treasure the ones you have with you now and don't take them for granted. life is definitely unpredictable and fascinating. in this case, it brought you sadness and pain. let those young times take over and let memories flow and be glad she was your grandma. take real good care bro. if there's anything i can help or just listen, you can just call me like you always do.

ya sis =)