i reckon i have been a rather lazy/busy girl. nice way to put it is say i "busy". hees. so lack of updates that my QingAiDe is asking me when am i getting married. haa. oh my.

been suffering from a sickness. "super low self-esteeming." i like want to do so many things to my body. to change myself. to psycho myself. to hypnotize myself. to numb myself. to push myself. to make myself smile from the heart. i need a break from everyone, everything. time to let myself breathe alone. i want my imperfections to be perfect.

but slowly. i try to console myself. i talked myself out of the depressed mode which i dont show to anyone. there are people out there more miserable and in a more devastating state. what am i compared to them? it's nothing. really nothing.

the pain felt from skin is nothing (superficial).
the pain felt emotionally and mentally is a real torture.

finally i got this picture from catherine. hees. thanx qian jin =)

Big thank YOUs to those who love me and care for me.

it was really nice of:

1. My Angeline
2. Xuan Mei
3. LuLu
4. Yong Jia DiDi
5. Kok Ping Bro
6. Xiao Chang Bro
7. Vincent Bro

to sharing for my 20th present. i bought my first ever Levi's Jeans. hees. i love it! MUACKS MUACKS and BIG HUGGIES! =)

extra thankies to my Qing Ai De for giving me those "Cinnamonona" stuff to me! so cuties! hees. thanx a lot dear. hearts you.

thankies to:

1. MSS
2. Xuan Mei
3. Liz Jie
4. Yong Jia Di DI
5. My Angeline
6. Jessie HJM
7. Elaine
8. LuLu
9. Vincent
10. Kai Jie
11. Melissa
12. Auntie Susan
13. Alvin mei mei
14. Yvonne
15. Hanif
16. Ivan Ykk
17. Kok Ping Bro
18. Lee Hwee
19. Roy
20. Mummy&Daddy&PoPo&NaiNai

for wishing me and being with me and have the thought of me! well. am no longer teen-ager and all. wails! but. i am going to be a hardworking girl =p

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4th day of schooling in SIM. things are so different. when i say different. i seriously mean it.. wish me lots of luck.

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take care all. hugs