it's amazing how things can change. changes are constant. nothing is forever. the thought of wanting to stay with my dream is tough. despite difficulties and barriers, going through and wanting to stay strong and determined is not an easy task. to be able to be firm and gain support is something hard to obtain. having to move forward and think of what's best for oneself is really a challenge. how can you be sure that your one decision would not affect the rest of your life? there is no definite answer. being myself and believing myself is one thing i am proud of. doing what others want me to do rather than do the things i want had been repeated many time throughout my life. though i am not very old, but i had gain my experiences in different aspects. this is serious. not random. this is what i had to think clearly and be on my own to achieve. what i want and what i need are the 2 most major questions running through my lil brain now. to overcome? to let go? to make a decision which i will stick by with no regrets. no regrets at all. is that possible? i always claim i am strong. i always claim i will be alright. but is this the case? am i really that strong and alright? no.

dreams...

sometimes in dreams, you have more dreams.
sometimes in life, you have more than one dream.
sometimes getting near your dream, you are happy.
sometimes getting your dream, you need to sacrifice.
sometimes the dream you want might not be just quite it.

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thank you but thank you, not.