28-01-07

i was kinda down with some pretty confusing messed up emotions. sounds complicated already huh?
i think i am worrying too much. i should just let things fall into place.
with regards to the Prom Night.
i had asked, begged, pleaded with people to go.
it seems that i am lowering myself so much, i am losing it.

all i want is just to see ALL my classmates there. everyone.

from anthony to arif.
from calist to clement to candy to chang.
from jessie to jun jie.
from kok ping to kok keong.
from wei jie to wayne to wei lun to wei zhen.
from shi xiong to lulu to nisa to evonne.

and maybe (daryll)

i guess i am asking far too much.

i text an sms to some of them which i felt i forced them to go. asking them to tell me truthfully if they want to go
or not. i am too tired to ask anymore. i really am. it's just PROM. so, ya.

clement replied. he said he was too broke recently. i said it's ok. really is.

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i just want you guys to know this: i will miss my class.

whether or not is the taken-for-granted sem(s) 1/2/3/4. i will always know what i had in poly days.
it will all be over so soon before you-know-it. maybe it's the time factor. maybe it's the money factor.
or maybe. it's just our bond is not strong enough to realised what we had. maybe.

whatever it is. i sincerely thanked you guys for being my classmates and sharing part of my poly life.

to those in the society and ihp whom i shared happy/sad/stressed/upset/comforting/fucked-up times with.

i thanked you all =)

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i got myself a P.I. whom helped me investigated who "Love" on my tagboard is.
he can actually work in the CIA i swear. haha.

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at kumon i learnt: long. longer. longerest.
so now i apply my learnings.

it's soon. it's coming sonner. it's the sonnerest.
so soon. so so soon. so so so so so soon.
argh.

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changes are constant.
people are the cause of changes.
whether you like it or not, you are part of changes.

changes are sometimes hard to adapt.
changes are sometimes very superficial.
changes are sometimes unpredictable.
changes are most of the time, fascinating.

congrats. cos you are changing.

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Move Along
"So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold"

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Jay - Ju Hua Tai

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i saw an old grandma sitting at the small lil traffic crossing path towards Bugis Street/Parco Bugis Junction.
it was dark. i couldn't see her clearly.
she was selling tissues. but i dont want any. i donated $2 to her. the smile on her face is priceless.
i then stand a distance while waiting for the traffic light.
i teared.
my heart just felt so painful.
i kept thinking about her. is she cold? does she need the jacket on me? shall i send her home?

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life. this is life. so helpless. so damn fucking helpless.

people, please just sometimes spare a dollar or two to buy tissues from these elderly.
i believe in kind hearted and good karma.

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sometimes in life. you just cant plan things. *screams!

woo! this entry is longerest and random. and i love it. muacks myself
all kinds of feelings felt and emotions left out...