wee! guess how the fuck am i blogging now?
using broadband! wee wee wee!
i fixed the connection. it was dummy-proof. =P
finally i can like get access to the internet so fast.
what a feeling ah.

it's gonna be a busy month.
assignments.swimming.work.blah blah blah.
i see my h/p calendar - so many markings.

been a long while. i am fine.
i am feeling so fine. yeah!

ivan, i promised to blog!

i have a speedo-swimming trunk instructor.

=)

good year ahead please.


06/01/07


weee. welcome you freshman - 2007.
yet another year has passed. - 2006.

some people came to view house just now at 11.30am. i was asleep.
they were laughing at me. i heard it you assholes.
i slept late. watched American Beauty which was shown on Ch 5 last night.
good show said many. i love it.

and er.. Oh my buddha. tomorrow is school day?
shit. i so don't wanna go to school but i will miss it after i graduate..

damn. i smell exams and stress and tears and unbearables stuff.
christmas and new year day came and went away.
Chinese New Year is coming. and so is Valentine.

mr yang. i need to work at kumon a bit. pls pls.
i know i took a long break away for the month of dec.
but i am ready again.
i miss those kids. and need come cash. haa.


02/01/07


F.I.R - ta hen ai ta
this song. i just gotta mention it. i have to.
it's such a close to heart kind of song. to me.

common test is ALRIGHT. except for last one - MBA.
blame it on my laziness. no more motivation left for me to strive for it.
the most effort - MWS. chen shi fu, you better love me. haa.

got this baby back. my dear lappy. changed her mother board. so damn heart pain.
she was in ICU for a week. like again. mel is not a good place for my lappy. no no.
the people fixed up my keyboard. no more magical "3" typing all by itself.
no more external key board. no more laughs at. no more. i hope

2 weeks of holidays. 1 will be gone soon. had a class gathering. well. almost a class gathering.
so damn sad that not all turned up. not mentioning names but i got dishearted a lil.
went JB for a day of piracy and flooding.

rain is definitely an issue this time of the year.

and just who in the world would go to "Rain's" concert with tickets going from $188?
rain, you are far too expensive now.

i love random shit. i love to just blog what i have now and what i want to say now.
i always have thoughts and drafts in my mind.
but when i turned the laptop on, go to www.blogger.com and go to "New Post".
my mind will be like "blank." haa.

i hope the Kun Ming trip is go-able. (my kind of language)

i hope yu xuan had lots of fun at H.K.
i miss her,

i hope angel is fine and is as cheerful. she should be back pretty soon from her trip.
i miss her,

i hope mich is as cute and herself.
i miss her,

i hope mel is missing me and is smiling as sweet as always.
i miss her,

i hope kaka's life is no longer full of complications and have some time for me.
i miss her,

i have been having lots of dreams.
i dreamt twice or so that i was back at FCUK to work. the girls there are still as fun.
if only dreams like that come true whenever you want them to.

i had dreams showing what i will be.
an air stewardness.
a primary school teacher.
some position in GAMUT marketing (which deals with FCUK, BCBG, SEED and blah)

dreams.dreams.dreams.

next year's feb is a bad month. exams. done with poly days and some departures of flights.
argh.

there will be someone who will give me a good life in future. i truly believe.

drank with white wine.yummy.

-
get drank. go ahead and live the high-end life.
go ahead and be so rich if everything and anything.
lie your way through your terrible and pathetic life.
you think you can judge well. you think you can think well.
you think you-know-it-all. you think you are so fine.
you think you are so high up.
nah.
you are a piece of unwanted paper which i am stepping on.

-
bee-yatches. to hell. yah.
you think you are smart.
just you wait.
you will have your just desserts which will be damn fucking sweet.
enjoy your life fool.
stop fooling yourself. for everyone's sake.
you are so not smart.
you are so not lovely at all.
you are not appealing. stop it.
you better get the hell out of my sight forever.
the sight of you make me wanna puke.
you are ugly. inside and outside.
you are a liar. you are deceiving yourself.
you are non-existent to me.
for i shall not see things i cant stand.
-

i am living with 3 other women but there are 5 of us together.
i am so failing my math. or is it my eye sight?
what a joke.
your presence is around but i choose to elimiate it/you.
daddy-is a strange word in my dictionary. so damn strange.

fucked up huh. ya,

damn this girl is so unhappy. you might think.
you might start to want to show pity or empathy.
keep those. i am not in need of them and never will be.

i dare to love. i dare to hate. i dare to admit. i dare to show.
i dare to say. i dare to be true. i dare to be myself. i dare you.

i have my happiness. my very own. no doubt.

in this space. i show you my happy-smiley pictures.
but
i pour my unhappiness for it shall be forgotten after i poured them.
typing out and showing frustrations and helpless.

for i dont want to feel the unhappy.
i want to be happy and feel happy outside of this space.
i am, but a happy girl who smiles at you.

bought 4 little black dress books. interesting. engaging.
every girl should have the essential - a little black dress.
like how you need the black dress. i suggest you the books too.
yeah. finally i can like read, again.

and did i mention i missed the fyp times?
not the working on project times of course. hell no.
the playing and enjoyment part.
quite a few outings.
now that i looked back at photos, videos.
it was a hell of fun stuff.

i smell swimming classes. (lets tongue out)

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
i don't want the world to see me.

Augustana - Boston
you don't know me. you don't even care.

music is a big part of my life, too.
i appreciate music. i need music.
i am so thankful for music.

22/12/06