one fine day-tuesday.
went jurong point to catch "Happy Feet" with my 2 bros during the breaktime. calist da jie didn't make it as she needed her beauty sleep. it was a "all so cutie baby penguins show" the story line is making us realise that we-human is indeed taking away their food supply and the pollution we caused towards them. and yes, there are some frightening scenes. haa.


the 2 lil boys sleeping on 154. on the way back. so gay man. wear same color somemore.
time of us gathering and hanging out are getting lesser and lesser...

**

li jie msg me yesterday asking me to take over her Olay promoter job on weekends but i cant. she's going through a hard time. i understand. i listened and advised her a lil. can't help much because this is the period she needs to pull and bring herself together to get through it. you take care girl.

**

yesterday after work, went to have dinner with mummy and cutie grandma at bbp. saw ericia and chatted in front of the vcd shop for like 20 mins? put aeroplane to my mum and her mum. haa. so funny. we like got see each other at Kumon and sometimes in schoool but don know why we can chat like that? i totally understand her situtation right now. i seriously do. you will pass through it girl. jia you, hang on. survive it =)

**

friends, i will keep them close to my heart

i, am a call away
i, will listen and care
i, will treasure and remember
i, will do my best and go all out to help

your secrets, are safe with me
that, is what i do when i regard you as my friend =)

**

comman tests are so not common.
they are nearing. shit.

sunday slep till 1pm.
saturday slept till 11am.
but still achieve 2 things.
i packed my amazingly messy wardobe
and
sort out my modules stuff (notes,worksheets...)

my winsome brown FreshKon contacts. i loved it.


my fav. ranked no.1 prawn noodles. at chinatown. yums. the prawns are freshy fresh and the soup is tasty yums. drooling*
then.
checked out cruise trip at travel agencies.
bought beads to "repair" the ear-rings which yong jia gave me.
and got myself a greeny butterfly necklace.
i love to buy things for myself.
i wish i have more fortune.. bleah.
then.
went TCC for desserts. dark devotion is awesome.
chocolate helps in balancing your emotions.

**

maybe it's time everyone forgives and forgets. maybe
people sometime say they are really busy. maybe
it's all excuses. things are all within your own control.
if you want things to happen, it will.
if you dont want to lose somebody then you won't.

my mind is still in a major-mega mess.
i wish and i can go for some therapy or some shutawayfromeverythingelse session. i am like so small, so helpless, so useless, so unseen and so forgotten. i feel that. and it's not a good feeling. i wish i can have my mind, my brain and my memory to undergo reformat or clearing up. i wish a car would knock me down and i wont die yet. i will just lose all my memory of what i dont want to keep but still remember and keep what i want to have.

that is like so impossible but what's impossible when man can go to the moon?

i need a new life.
i need to wake up my ideas.
i need to be really realistic and real.

**

i "composed" a song in my head that day call "Oh hey." it's in chinese.

today. i am so gonna fail my QLA quiz.
if i pass. i am not a girl. how serious am i.
pui*

the channel U 10pm show is so ARGHHHHH!
i want to chase but still so angry abt it. the show is
so getting on my nerves.
got square-shape r/s and triangle too.
i hate them all.

**

tue.
went IMM with "da jie", calist. while the 2 boys go swimming..
we were like so cheated. we got so scared.
lost and hell full of fume and anger with the shuttle bus.
argh! fuck it all!

**

yesterday, went vivocity with them.
bought a yellow birthday bear.
for good luck purpose.

there. the Toys R Us

















































































spider.wiseOldtalkingTree.
our3year-old.never grow up.
the old chang kee queue for 50cent currypuff.
bag i bought at bazaar.


*P/s:
KP, me and xiao chang will make that thing happen!
we so wanna see how it happens. haa. =P

**
super-random

it's fascinating when you are fated to meet someone and after that, after all the break-ups, you never see them. like never ever again. the fate thing works its magic and make them disappear. haa. it's like so funny. i think. like my boyfriend-eds. i like never see them again. how strange when you see them last time and now it seems that they all emigrate together? i am living in Singapore dude. so small yet people are separated. like my kindergarten friends, primary school ones too. they are all like unknown, strangers, ET to me. why is it like that? fate has it that we were classmates and all. fate has it that we all met and fall together at the right places but fate also has it we all are not in contact and forgotten.

hai~ sigh.

i want to:

graduate.
move out.
go on a cruise.
never see certain people ever again.

and to mr tan.h.g: please stop the "yo-yo" thing.
it's driving me ---> -_-"'"'"'"'"

**

guess we all crossed paths.
for a reason.
but we were never meant to be.
for another reason.
all things happened for a reason.

understand my reasonings?
i dont.

inside of these windows. i was once comforted.
outside of these windows. i was being torn up. all of me.
keep me in one of these windows please.
keep me safe and warm and comforted again.

**

some random shit again since i cant concentrate on ECAD prac.
QLA quiz on thursday. fuck. common tests coming real soooooon.

its just so tired. every single day.
home.school.work.life.myself.others.

i want a getaway. i need it, desperately-ly.

so much need to be done and i can't do it.
why?
i am very drained emotionally and mentally.
it can seriously kills.

**

random stuff:

the there. the here. the close. the far.
the red. the blue. the orange. the green.
the stairs. the playground. the park. the bus.
the foods. the you. the me. the cold. the warm.
the times. the feelings. the emotions. the tears.
the family. the problem. the unforgivens. the fake.
the stress. the fucked up. the worsts. the bads. the losts.
the lies. the liars. the cheats. the brokens. the fragile. the needs.
the crazy. the mad. the happy. the sad. the anger. the angry. the wild.

**

i want what i want. but. what do i want?
what can i want?
tell me. give me. show me. want me.

wee. end product.




play cheat. ready-made crust. hee

CASINO ROYALE
you got to watch it in cinemas.


dinner at TCC before the show...

tcc at nanyang academy of art.

dark devotion.


salmon don know what.
oven baked chicken.

**

making of the cheesecake at Jessie's house. it was a success.


friday..anxious with her new purple glasses.

**

kbox at clementi.


singing her lungs out.

so happy that i sang my lungs out.

**

chicken house at Sin Ming Road.

busy eating.

take picture take picture.

the chicken.

our simple lunch.

**

over and done with wisp first assignment. thanx to the group. on bus 52 to Chicken House. i saw a couple. a les couple. my eyes still go big big wide wide when i see how they behave. they behave like a normal couple. am i not open-minded enough or i don understand their world? i think i should be a bisexual then can i truly understand eh? ha. right. so much for trying to be understanding and nice. i cant even handle and understand myself already.

**

people change. and you?
people stereotype. and you?
people attitude just suck. and yours?

lies lies lies and more lies ya.
liars are all around.
you pathetic sad asses.
get lost.

a lie a day makes my day.

**

i am sad. and not.
i am happy. and not.
i am complicated. and not.
i am very fucked up. and not.

do u understand what the hell am i trying to say?
i don't myself. if you do, you are a psycho.

at- clementi's Kopitiam. Botak Jones.
with branches at A.M.K and Tuas too.

the people. calist, kp and xiao chang.




the foods.yum

fish and chips

meh meh chop

cajun chicken.

this is my son. clement (mun tat)


sleeping..

driving!

sat in his car yesterday. happy+worried. haa. he la. chiong red light and go bang people.. before. heng ah, was only driving from convention to ict block. haa. proud of him ah. can sleep so readily and now he got gf! hee. so, grandson? when???

**

i don wanna care about anyone. anymore.

if you don't like me. fuck off.
if you cant stand me. fuck off.
if you cant tolerate me. fuck off.
if you cant go/meet with my flow. fuck off.
if you cant communicate with me. fuck off.

bottom line : fuck off.

**

i need a vacation badly. i need to move out.
away. away from all these. please.

at DANZATION 2006 by NRA.
with vincent.angel.zul. thanx vincent for the invite.
saw blue-cap lionel, ah pok and hanxiang.


it was good. extremely good. fucking good. i was damn proud of "son" clement. enjoyed every bit of the production. except for the emcees. everyone was high. everyone of them was happy and it was shown on their faces. i want to be one of them. without music, the dance moves are really like empty, lacking. both combine - shiok. it was really really enjoyable. i was so entertained.

i want to be her.
the song by mario: let me love you. it's nice.

"You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you"

*

clement: where are you?
me: har? (on lovely warm bed) you so busy, i go off le.
clement: so long never see you guys. meet lei. (he said something like that)
me: okay okay okay. class gathering in december, the 19th. go AH!
clement: okay okays.
me: okay la. you go rest. tmr still got. rest more. jia you! bye bye.
clement: ok ok ok. thanx for coming. bye.

put down the phone..

i msg him:
"i forgot to mention this son. the performance was great. all your efforts. it was touching. but hosts need some training. haa. i enjoyed every bit =) am proud of u"


his reply:
"Lol .. Wah u say till like that.. Thanks for comin really .. Really really appreciate it.. U're the best.."

it was something like this la. thankings, encouraging, missing. lucky my "son" is the "ying shui si yuan" type ah.

thanx so much to angel's mum for sending me home =)

dear classmates. please make it for 19/12/06. class gathering lei.

**

last fri was great.
haven present WISP yet.
not yet.
ate thai express at holland v. (pictures at bottom)
then i wanted to cut away some stress and weight.
and so.. it was raining big big. took bus to bangkit and cut hair.
then went ten mile junction for pedicure. it was shiok la. i thought it was not itchy(the foot scrub) but it was la. oh my buddha. kept giggling. the manicurist also mentioned my toes are cute. cute? cute la. ha.

at last. done up with lil flowers. hee

my happy feets.

angel's happy feets.

shoes.shoes..

my FAV. pair of shoes. because...

soak soak legs.

happy me.

happy her.

then it was cheap nasi lemak dinner and off to Kumon.

**

thai express with angel after wisp class.