this is to : jawl.

Maybe I had always been an only child and I am very good in disguise and hiding so there are things you dont know and never will get to know....

I have hurt you so much and so have you. Lets call it quits.
End all these.
I have since changed. Maybe on the outside no one sees so because I cry on the inside now and I am not myself anymore.

I have too many bad points.
I am too lousy, petty, ridiculous, irresponsible, rude, ill-mannered, lazy, lack of discipline, inconsiderate, dumb, stupid, bad-tempered, unreasonable, lowly, barbaric, cruel, proud, impatient, angry, frustrated, ruthless, heartless, bitchy and vulgar and many more.
I dont have any confidence with me right now.
My morale is damn low and I am very much full of mixed emotions which overwhelmed me and I could not control nor show because I want to hide it all away, locked them up and deceive myself.

(dont cry anymore. time will heal.)

Memories will only be memories.
I will keep those sweet and happy ones.
Fate and destiny are not within our control.
I will listen to their calls and live my life.
Ups and downs are part of life.
I would very much get higher or lower.
I loved and hated.
I feel them all.
I cried and got torn up.
I learnt to be stronger.

*the end*