this is to : jawl.

Maybe I had always been an only child and I am very good in disguise and hiding so there are things you dont know and never will get to know....

I have hurt you so much and so have you. Lets call it quits.
End all these.
I have since changed. Maybe on the outside no one sees so because I cry on the inside now and I am not myself anymore.

I have too many bad points.
I am too lousy, petty, ridiculous, irresponsible, rude, ill-mannered, lazy, lack of discipline, inconsiderate, dumb, stupid, bad-tempered, unreasonable, lowly, barbaric, cruel, proud, impatient, angry, frustrated, ruthless, heartless, bitchy and vulgar and many more.
I dont have any confidence with me right now.
My morale is damn low and I am very much full of mixed emotions which overwhelmed me and I could not control nor show because I want to hide it all away, locked them up and deceive myself.

(dont cry anymore. time will heal.)

Memories will only be memories.
I will keep those sweet and happy ones.
Fate and destiny are not within our control.
I will listen to their calls and live my life.
Ups and downs are part of life.
I would very much get higher or lower.
I loved and hated.
I feel them all.
I cried and got torn up.
I learnt to be stronger.

*the end*

At The Heeren's Vil'La Ge with angel, edward (small beansprout) and yong jia didi.

freezing for me to take picture. hee. mybestfriend.

yums.rosti with chicken sausage.

calamaris!


baked rice. it was tooooo dry...

watched DOA after that. it was funny lei. i like the pirates. hahaha. in front got something eh?

there was this day. i think is monday. me, jessie,lu was sitting outside egarage then lu had to go and along came calist. well. bored. sit there blew wind and took pictures with my HJM.


HJMs.
my hair tickles her.haha

my angel's first time-that is driving la!
passengers-angel's mum, chris and me.

belt first.safety.

talk abit.relac.

turning out.first big step

smiles my dear.love ya.

you better be real careful on the road ya.
i will ask buddha to bless you and AN LA!
heng heng okies? hugs*

i am pretty sad it's not a whole class sort of outing but i am contented in a way.
the brothers and HJM way.
2 single and really nice guys and one married girl...


brother chang being really kind driving us


our drinks. citrus apple paradise.passion dream.peach me up.oero milkshake.

miss jessie lee.

mr seng kok ping.

mr tay wee cheong.


now that's so sengkokping. hahaha. bugis bugis bugis day. enjoyed.
so, where to next week during our break time? *winks/

**
shalala. you.

heels-oh-la! i bought heels like nobody business for the first time.. from vnc to tinkerbell to vincci. and oh i bought a pair from charles and keith on sunday, school shoes la. hee.







oh ya, i went BigO again and took my half finished durian cake..

i just want to vomit some stuff here. well, this is a piece of virtual world which is mine and i can say anything i WANT! been having BAD, TERRIBLE, BAD, TERRIBLE, WTF-kind-of-headaches/migraine for the past week plus. it SUCKS. it did. it sucked me dry... okies. enough about those..

i still got photoS to upload but my house la. you know la. internet connection la. very slow la. it's dial up. damn. nevermind ya can use in school. tmr school re-open! WA so happy. right. like real,. it's gonna be busy+busy+busy. i bought the "Ultimate R&B" cd and it's really ultimate-est. haha. it's good. i love it.

it has been a month or so since the Shanghai trip. i still miss that place. it's nice but things will not be the same if you travel there again the second time doing the same stuff. then again, i am looking forward to a proposing Taiwan graduation trip. anyone interested? hee.

i want to meet up with mich ah ma again. i want my mel. i want my xuan mei. i want my kaka. i want run qing. i want her badly.

**
i need time to get stable and calm down with my thoughts. i don't want to hide how i feel alrights. i am what i am. i do what i feel i should do and i go with my heart and gut feelings... it's time i just breathe in and smile. i am gonna make myself stronger and tougher. i wanna be the 'fighter' of Christina Aguilera's song.

your own future and happiness is very much in your own hands. right.
if things are meant to be, no one can stop it. believe.

**
take care all. this world is unpredictable and it's still turning. like now.
& haze haze go away and never ever ever come back!

5 of Oct is my dearest michelle(mee tiao) "ah ma"'s 19th birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear girl. hope you loved that sunflower angel and i got for it. but anyhows, we both know very well that the sunflower will die pretty soon.. hahaha. well. look below! lalala.
swissotel merchant court: hi-tea












big O with angel after work...

aiya. forgot to take pics of food and cakes...

anyway, there was this stupid waiter there who kept refilling my water when i don't want any! the service was good but please listen to the customer!!!

*P.S: the durian cake was deliciOUS. yum yum.