the one&only fucked up entry.
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letting you making fun of me and laughing at me is never my forte. showing you my happy face is not my job. stop the nonsense, stop the hurting towards me. i had ENOUGH. and enough is enough. bring those shit away from my sight. i am not perfect. neither are you. you can bring me down ONLY if you are perfect with no flaws no nothing. i am not a rich kid, i can't afford many things, i can't afford to sue you or whatsoever. i tried to make up in other ways. i offered my true.my truth.my trust to you. yet you misused them. you didn't treasured any of those. you walked over me. i tried and offer what i can to you, to make you feel better in times of sadness, gave you advices, made you smile, let you think through but yet all i got was taken for granted. i am not god sent, i am not a gift, i am not something you can throw here and there. it's because i think you are worth it, therefore i treat you well because i want to not because i am asked to. but i have my worth, i have my stand, i have my say and feelings. i have never ever asked for anything in return from you. i know that once i start to give, you will gradually keep on taking. and i know i can't stop since i start to give but that does not give you the right to abuse me. that does not mean not having things that you have, i need to suit you and make you happy and please you even if no one gives a damn about how i feel. this ain't no shit that i am taking from you. because i live my life and i own my life. i don't need to take any command or instructions from you. it's time you realise that. don ever show me your fuck face and your fuck attitude. i don't deserve and need to stand any of this and you got me right. damn bloody right. this is me who is writing this because tolerance have a level and i think i attained the highest ever. don't use the fuck word if you don't know how to use it. don't bring me down you fucking asshole. don't fucking start to hurt me. don't even try to have that thinking to start you jerk. STOP! stop right here and now. get lost from my sight. get off my back. get away from me. scram or i make sure i make you wish that you were NEVER born. jackasses.
it's time.@ 6:35 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
